Thoughts and life...

Power of thoughts: After giving much thought to this topic and its implementations in my life, I finally decided to start expressing my ideas here with a real live example from my life.

I’ll just start with the recent last one that I can remember vividly.

“January 2009 – I’d come back from New York, back to India, not in a good state of mind, thoroughly exhausted with the kind of work I’d been doing since past 5 years. It was same, it was stagnant, I hated the work culture- I was being in and I had no friends. I saw no aim in my life, the work was getting over my nerves and I desperately wanted to quit my job, go back home for a few months or so just to relax. Later on I thought I’d join some elementary school there in my hometown and become a teacher.

But obviously it was a much forbidden dream for me to make true especially in the times of recession, with my employer’s bond of Rs.4,20,000 to serve for another 6 months and that too when my parents were searching for a decent groom for me to get married to.

I spent the next two months fighting with myself, struggling somehow to adjust with the whole situation, trying to convince myself to compromise and live with it, all in vain.

In March 2009 end, I said to myself – “Enough!” and then I resigned. It gave me so much relief the moment I sent my resignation email to my manager. The feeling was tantamount to the one you'd feel while coming out of a jail. I was a free bird.

Nearly every one I knew that time boycotted my decision. 

“You’ll not get a job at this time! and the gap will really prove bad for your profile” ..

“Don’t quit, its recession time! You’ll have troubles later”…

“You have a bond with your employer for 6 months, you have to serve the company else you’d have to pay an amount of Rs. 4,20,000/-“ ….

“You will not get your onsite leaves encashed before 6 months of your service to your employer, after you are back from US …you fool!!! “

and blah blah blah!!!!

I asked my heart and just followed what it said. It felt so right that I took this decision without knowing what would be the outcomes of it. The night I resigned, I wrote a few lines in my diary…

“I am staying at my home, happy with my family. I have not served any notice period and have come to my home at the timing of my own choice. The bond fee of Rs. 4,20,000/- has been waived off. I have got my money as well as my onsite leaves encashment done with success and peace by my company. I am free, I am at peace and I am happy. Thank you very much.”

It looked like a very impossible prayer that time, the moment I wrote those words. I read them again; they looked like some highly anticipated dream. I kept on reading them, again and again and again…till the time I could actually FEEL the words and their meanings…and then I went so deep into those words that I felt the feeling of every sentence I wrote. I lived the moments and absolutely loved them, and then I slept.

What happened in next 3-4 months was something no body could believe. I went home in April, telling my manager that I can’t stand the office and work any more and I am going home on loss of pay leave till my last day in this company.

At home I received a mail from my manager stating that its fine, they can prepone my release date and make the next day as my last working day (1 wish manifested!! )

Now was the release process which was the most dreaded one. I talked to my HR manager who gratefully and surprisingly agreed to waive off my bond fee since she herself had given me an early exit from the company. (2nd wish manifested)

Next I got all my money along with my onsite leave encashment done properly to my account, without having any issues with the management. I spent a nice holiday time of around 4-5 months at my home before I decided what next to do in my life. 

Later I changed my mind and came back to Bangalore, went for my first interview without knowing what would happen and got the job the instant at almost double hike - yes! at the time of recession. This is the exact kind of job I wanted and I absolutely love it.”

I know , reading all these stuffs won’t make you feel the urgency of the situation, but I’d like to add here that many people who did the same act of quitting the company the way I did after coming back from onsite location (long term) faced the issues w.r.t the onsite leave encashment and bond fee. I also at one time received a mail from my employer's legal cell that I have to give them some 3 lakh rupees as a part of bond fee, but it all got settled in my favor. I may be lucky! I don’t know.

The only thing I had in my mind was my belief and I kept on tuning it to what I wanted all these times, as I used to live the words I wrote in my diary, every single day. You can call it a manifestation, or getting control of your life. We all make such miracles sometime or the other. Why dont we do it all the times? This is just one example of it. There are many more to site from my life since the times I remember that would go to the times when I was just 5 years old and I guess if I start writing them I’d need to write a whole book instead of just a blog article. I will try to :-) for the sake of my own fun. Till then just ponder over this fact –

“You can program your subconscious mind to do anything. It doesn’t matter whether you believe that you can do it or you can not; either way you are right!! “